Writing was a wall between a suffocating past and a future I didn’t want to face. For a time, writing shored up that sadness like a dam. – Darlene Collins
When my son left home at 18, I immediately threw myself into writing. From experience, I knew that it could bring desperately needed perspective and distraction.
But I hadn’t anticipated the force of what I was facing. The sadness swelled like a rogue wave and fed on itself, like a snake eating its own tail. The loss was too much, the wave too heavy. I had lived with the anxiety of the coming loss for too long and my defences were weak.
I felt like I was crawling out of my own skin.
So I used words to shore it all up, to distract myself while I found a way through it, little by little and one drop at a time, rather than facing down the whole swell at once.
Writing isn’t a magic bean – but it can be a bandaid if you need one.
©Darlene Collins 2018
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